Knock You Down By Keri Hilson ft. Kanye West & Ne Yo

I think I'm too heartless; I don't think I'll ever marry anyone, I don't think I ever want to.

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down
Just get back up when it knocks you down, knocks you down
Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down
Just get back up when it knocks you down, knocks you down

Something a friend said to me last year keeps repeating itself, "You'll never let any boy get close to you." My cousin and I were in her car last night talking about such issues, conversing about how there are flaws within everyone, but if you're able to handle the worst case scenario of a person then you can handle anyone. However, for me...those moments are fleeting, flowing in and out like my feelings for them.

I wonder why I'm like this...so "cool"--in more ways than one--with matters that deal with the heart. It isn't because I went through a difficult relationship or have been heartbroken, not enough because I never let anyone get close enough. When I was young, I used to crush on/like people left and right, but now that I'm older, I'm extremely picky and hesitant. I rather not deal with anyone because it's extra stress that I don't care for, extra drama that will make me regret my actions in the future.

Perhaps I don't want to end up eventually breaking up like all the couples that I know. Only those married and still in love give me hope that two people can stay in a monogamous relationship and still be happy and satisfied.