I'm hurting more than I expected. I'm taking longer to regain my strength and confidence than I originally thought. Rejection coupled with disappointment coupled with complete BULLSHIT can be a doozy. I've been meaning to get back on the horse and ride that shit home, but I'm running away from my problems right now because I need time to deal.

I think it's time to stop being a little bitch and handle my shit. I have to be strong again.