Back to Basics

"I need to put up with two or three caterpillars if I want to get to know the butterflies. Apparently they're very beautiful. Otherwise who will visit me? You'll be far away. As for the big animals, I'm not afraid of them. I have my own claws." And she naively showed her four thorns. Then she added, "Don't hang around like this; it's irritating. You made up your mind to leave. Now go."

For she didn't want him to see her crying. She was such a proud flower...

When I bought The Little Prince by Antoine De Saint-Exupery, I told Joann that this book has the answers to my problems. And it does.

I realize that I have already repressed memories of you, like I do with others, and it's tragic that you couldn't give me a chance to get to know you and that you couldn't give yourself a chance to get to know me.

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Reading books and watching movies meant for kids returns me to the person I once hoped for. It's sort of like attending Sunday mass, a constant reminder of what's important.

Yesterday, I was sitting in the sanctuary with the kids, watching Meeting the Robinsons again, and I was so overcome with emotion. At the end, Little Wonders by Rob Thomas came on and I started to cry (I know I'm such a cry baby):

Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

When you're young, events are harsh and the present can be unsettling, but the future, the future is unimaginable. We go through turmoil and failure so that we can earn what we have in the future.