A Lame Effort to Blog

Her motions were languid at first, weak from a lack of exercise and will power. But as she swung her sword in a swift slicing motion and danced on the tip of her toes, she grew lighter and more enthusiastic. She never felt like this when her father taught her; she never understood how this power could feel so majestic and enlightening. She jabbed and thrusted and turned, around and around until every aspect blurred into an elongated scene that sucked the awe from her awaiting breath.


And she knew; she knew this is what she was meant for.

The World Doesn't End With Me

"I want to break up," I said.

Don't look like that. Don't look so heartbroken, as if I had meant the world to you

because the world doesn't end with me.

I asked you why you liked me. I was expecting this one perfect answer that only one other has ever said to me. Of course, I didn't expect you to say it, but I hoped and dreaded that you would.

You didn't.

And what you didn't know, or wouldn't want to know, was that afterward I sighed in relief. I was relieved that you weren't the perfect one for me because then I would be struggling with my emotions more than I was.

Don't caress me. Don't try to brush your nose against my cheek. Don't say that I was so right for you, spitting out my words verbatim.

And I turned away because it meant less to me than it does to you.

Just let it go. It was satisfying while it lasted.

But the world doesn't end with me.

I played The World Ends With You the whole day as usual. I'm so close to beating the game! I am irrevocably addicted. Most of my online tabs are about the game right now. haha.

I know it seems like I totally ripped off the title of the game in the part above, but it's ironic for many reasons that I cannot mention. It is just very fitting.

The World Doesn't End With Me, for me, means that you don't need depend completely on another person. You just need to depend on yourself, whether you are you or you are me. The whole point of that phrase is to be resilient. Wait for the future because it has rewards beyond your imagination.

Skimming Big Fat Liars

In 1970, people thought there was Global Cooling?!

The Office & Utter Nonsense

I took pictures of the flowers! When it first came out of the box (which I did not throw out yet. haha I am so messy!), it was wilted and looked somewhat like a weeping willow (i love weeping willows by the way!). It looks more lively after I put it into water and gave it plant food. I was laughing when I read the that the little packets were little plant food packets! I didn't know plants needed little packets of food. Is that why my other plant never grew? =(

The Office Premiere was, as always, AMAZING!

DON'T READ THIS NEXT LINE IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED IT!
I CAN'T BELIEVE JIM FINALLY PURPOSED!!!!!!!!

On other topics, I finally spilled all the pent up frustration and silence to my boyfriend. Part of another reason I created this blog was to stay anonymous, so I can speak on things and not be judged. It was hard being honest and writing the heart when my boyfriend reads into every word and reads my xanga everyday. I obviously wanted him to read my xanga to understand me better, but at the same time give me some breathing space please! But after speaking to him (mind you, an hour after our anniversary ended) about it, I felt a lot better about it. I felt relieved. It's true what they say about telling the truth will set you free.

I am minimally in tuned with politics (better now than I was before) and financial issues in the US. I am afraid that since Washington Mutual was bought by JP Morgan Chase that we're going into some kind of depression. If Bush was said to speak to both Obama and McCain about a financial plan and McCain is willing to step out, then our situation must be dire.

Our future as a country looks pretty bleak.

I love Autumn. Look at those leaves!

I'll admit I am not a virgin blogger

I'm excited about this blogging site. I used to just write on xanga, but I felt after reading this article in Children's Writer about how a real blog could get you published, I thought, "hey why not?" Oh! Also, I found my British Literature professor's website (he is hilarious! Luckily I have class with him in half an hour!) and I was amazed by his brilliance. If you like crossword puzzles and you want some help or answers, check out his site: rexparker. It sounds just like him and he's become kind of known actually for it. I didn't even realize that the site is from this blogger site. Pretty impressive.

I'm hoping to use this blog as a form of outlet of creative juices and just to exercise some writing styles. (I'm trying to keep this anonymous as much as I can! I'm not used to people I know reading my work, so anonymity would work for now)

Today is my 3rd month anniversary with my boyfriend and he sent me flowers! After I set them up in the vase, I'll put up some pictures. =] Considering I always guess the surprises he has in store for me and that I'm 3 hours away from home, this was particularly thoughtful.

On another note, I can't believe moonromance is up and going again. It brings back many memories. I miss when I was young. I miss the 90's! I think my next article (I finally joined the widely-read campus newspaper. Yeah Opinion section!) will probably be about the 90's or about majors.

THE OFFICE PREMIERES TONIGHT! WATCH IT AT 9PM!