I danced with a sophomore last night. He was tall and adorable and he would get really hyped up when a hip-hop song came on. He was dorky, getting a little too excited at times. He was also willing to buy drinks. [He told me a name, thinking he was lying, I gave him my fake name: Maria Garcias (inside joke). It was such a blatant lie. Of course, later I found out the name he gave me was real.]

I don't like to flirt to get things. I don't like to flirt unless I'm truly interested in the guy because, out of respect, I feel that I shouldn't mislead someone to get something. But it was so tempting to get something for free, so I asked--after he offered--for a drink.

I felt like an asshole after he bought me a drink because why should guys always buy girls drinks? Is it because guys want to get laid or want to hook up? And if not, if the guy is just giving and nice, why should a girl take advantage of them? Why do we just use each other?

He offered to buy me another drink, but I declined. I felt that I've wronged. Lately, that's all I've been doing.