I should have dumbass on my face

I actually danced with boys tonight. I know, I know. What's the big deal. The thing is I don't like it that much when guys are grinding with me and touching me, but I was like why the fuck not? I'm not involved with anyone and I'm not going to contract some STDS or anything through dancing. So I danced.

And as I was dancing, this cute, not just cute, FUCKING cute Asian boy walks onto the dance floor. He's wearing a gray sweater and an earring and at first the only thing I can see is his back, so maybe he's ugly. But then, mind you the lights are blinking so I can only get little glimpses, he turns and he's so cute. He's so cute that I would consider him gay. And he's lost, just standing there for a second. No girl. No nothing. I knew he was in frat. I could tell. I had the courage to dance with other guys, but what I should have done was walk over to him and start to dance with him. God. He had broad shoulders and big arms. I didn't want to overreact so I just danced but when I turned, he was gone. So gone.

I was upset, but whatever right. So then after I leave, I see him outside, leaving another bar and he's hanging with other Frat boys. And he walks away to the corner. Luckily, we were walking the same way and I was showing my suite mates who he was. He was directly across the street once because he turned to walk back and I was walking in that direction. So I stared. It was weird because it was like he knew I was staring and he stopped with his friends and stared back and said stuff for a while. It was weird. I couldn't stop laughing.

God. Just god.